So excited to speak with someone tomorrow whom I've admired a lot. Offering advice on marketing and branding. For now, lots of good and positive things coming. Body clear of cysts. Hello baby! Holidays approaching and lots of good times to gather with family and friends. Now if I can get the last chandelier finished and get ready to launch kickstarter.com after Christmas – all will be on track!

I am leaping into my life, and it is still unknown. We don't have friends as of yet, we still are navigating new territory here in Seattle –but I find it's exactly now that I begin with gratitude. Starting from where I am and then putting the faith out there: in myself, my life, the universe, my dreams.

Today as always something inspired me. It's the lotus pod. It reminds me of my life...all these little pockets of seeds ready to sprout, nestled inside me. Grateful. Inspired. Ready!

After recovering from surgery, second week in, I find I want to reach for feelings of gratitude. Instead, I am mired in feelings of anger and at a loss of what to do. It was a cathartic surgery; a removal of 4 large cysts that had inhabited my body way too long and caused a lot of damage. I feel lighter now, than ever. I feel the negativity has left my body and it can now rest and heal.

I am dreaming of the life I want, the career I deserve and the success I can taste...and yet today I have no answers. No answers to all the questions I have. Is that bad? Is that where the gratitude falls in? In the space in between no answers, the dreams and wishes? I think its important I find the now in this space. And then maybe the gratitude comes. It is November – Thanksgiving and gratitude and family.

For now I think I will stay in this space I am in...and today be grateful for the surgery I just had. I'm free from cysts and blockages and the road is open again. My road...this road...the road that will lead me to where I am now to where I hope to be.